Taking a step back so I can breathe.

this site unner MAJOR construction. in fact...the above nav console is dead in the proverbial water. so until otherwise fixed, click here for my bio, here for my furry-ness. everything else isnt ready for public consumption.


go here. now. do as youre told.

ask me about the North American Fletcher (doofus magnificus)

hey!! did you pay to get in here? no? oh good...dont wantcha to get ripped off here now. welcome to my world...and all that intro shite. lets hope ya have health insurance to cover outpatient therapy.

well enough of the polite stuff...yer not gonna get a lot of that here. here yer gonna find everything is who what why and for how much. its all up front and as personal as i can get online...heh.

WARNING!

the pages ahead are adult in content at one point or another....if you are
here you have the spoon in the road. choose your path but dont forget these simple rules:
1) do not talk to strangers which means dont talk to anyone around here
2) do not eat anything you find lying around i cant be held responsible
3) touch not the plaid jello or i will hurt you, and you wont like it

oh. by the way.....

Wait another minute.
Can't you see what this pain has fucking done to me?
I'm alive and still kickin'.
What you see I can't see...
and maybe you'll think before you speak.
I'm alive for you.
I'm awake because of you.
I'm alive I told you.
I'm awake swallowing you.
Take another second.
Turn your back on me...
and make believe that you're always happy.
It's safe to say you're never alive.
A big part of you has died.
And by the way...
I hope you're satisfied.
Tearing it back unveiling me.
Taking a step back so I can breathe.
Hear the silence about to break.
Fear resistance when I'm awake.

go ahead. read my LiveJournal. see what im thinking. what im feeling. i dare you.


Don't move
Don't talk out of time
Don't think
Don't worry
Everything's just fine
Just fine

Don't grab
Don't clutch
Don't hope for too much
Don't breathe
Don't achieve
Or grieve without leave

Don't check
Just balance on the fence
Don't answer
Don't ask
Don't try and make sense

Don't whisper
Don't talk
Don't run if you can walk
Don't cheat, compete
Don't miss the one beat

Don't travel by train
Don't eat
Don't spill
Don't piss in the drain
Don't make a will

Don't fill out any forms
Don't compensate
Don't cower
Don't crawl
Don't come around late
Don't hover at the gate

Don't take it on board
Don't fall on your sword
Just play another chord
If you feel you're getting bored

(I feel numb)
(I feel numb)
(Too much is not enough)
(I feel numb)

4/29/01

ok so its been a while since ive updated. BAD me! lol. back east now. So Cal was a warm bust. im Brooklyn Bound now...ok so im not bound, but i'd like to be! ;)

2/20/01

must....listen...to....Sting....AUGH! new musical obsession: Desert Rose.

2/18/01

redoin this here site thingy. is gooosh, ne?

back in CA from a brief, pointless trip to NY. it was snowy and cold so i was cranky...but, and there is ALWAYS a but, and its usually mine....part of me was so wanting to still be there in NY. the familiarity i think. mom and nana. the mountains. the plant life. the places i know. odd... still working on legal action against the witless wonders...

me and said dragonkiddo, however, found my other kiddo! you know? the missin one? the weamy brat? yeah...her! the WildRose one who can rival me in attitude and hyperactivity *WEG*

had my kiddo, DragonRose (the phreecdragoncandidcameraqueencurrykiddo) here right before i left for NY. best week ive had in ages. wish i hadnt been so pressed for cash at the time. i feel bad :(

wondering if being IN love with someone who will end up breaking my heart...again... is worth the slim chance he wont?

12/13/00

OH....MY....GODS! eeeee!!! *clapbounceclapwiggle* i have completed one of my four music idol goals. I GOT TO MEET TIM SKOLD!!!!!! *squeals* and he hugged me...TWICE! and he sweated on me...TWICE!!! he played as guest guitarist for the Newlydeads at the Pretty Ugly Club's 2 year anniversary (at a club in Hollywood called the Dragonfly). IT SOOOOOOO ROCKED. he is still, and always will me, my beloved object of lust and admiration.

9/24/00

i'm heeeeeeeerrrreeeee!!! heh. i've been in Cali for about a week and all is going rather well. the move was last minute but not vey hectic overall.

i have a new kid, Chris. he so rocks and i'm more than proud to call him my childe.

9/3/00

i'm gonna be a caligrrrrrrl in about a week. yep, im moving to Los Angeles...Long Beach to be exact. im leaving a lot behind but i think....i hope its going to be worth all the homesickness.

Labyrinth Muck is being built. i hope to have it running for the public soon after i move. i have a great host of Wizzes, no staff yet.

i've acquired a few staff bits and a wiz bit on mucks here and there. and thus as my positions and chars increase i made a page for them all.

i've been -trying- to work on my Councilistics book...its getting along, slowly

as of late i've been practicing different ways of feeding on energy, as i am not quite comfortable with myself and my knowledge to feed upon blood

5/29/00

our beloved WiccanRose has finally moved in (and with her comes twenty tons of pics). all cheer now please. hey! you in the back row!! i cant -hear- you!!!

i'm creating two mucks for when my DSL line is up and running. a CATS muck (yes, silly...the play) and Labyrinth muck (yay! you're catching on! the movie!)

4/24/00

i have reached my life goal. i am an official readerbabe. no, not wuh fuh? readerbabe. goto seanbaby.com and find out you dolt.

even though i have no real family to speak of...fondly, i am blessed to be able to say that my niece in spirit will soon be my god daughter in reality.

as we speak a book is in the works. as an active Councilistic, i find that buying umpteen hundred books on every published religion and "mythology" is a bit tiresome and financially annoying, like the rest of my life. so i am in the study/gather portion of making my own. arent you excited? you are? then go use the bathroom